2014: The Year of Getting My Collective Shit Together.
In years past, I’ve been flat-out obsessed with nothing but losing weight or eating the “right” diet or whatever.
This year I’m trying to learn to be a better adult. That means a couple of things to me. I need to dress better, learn how to style my hair/makeup and I need to stop living paycheck-to-paycheck.
So… I have about four different books on fashion in my possession right now. My least favorite that I read was, “How to Never Look Fat Again.” This book is great if you want to give yourself a complex. I mean, every chapter revolves around a body part that is a “problem area” and begins with all the different things that problem area is called. Like at the hips and thighs part, she starts of by calling them, “saddlebags” and other wonderful shitty nicknames. If I wanted someone to make fun of my thighs, I would have just done it myself. You know what’s slimming? Confidence. And fuck your shitty rules. I’d rather have a big list of do’s rather than so many don’ts.
So this other book I just read in about 2 days definitely mapped-out exactly what a great wardrobe is made of. I open up my closet every day and am totally lost, then I still hate the choice I make after agonizing over it. I’m buying all these neutral base-pieces and the deciding happens *on top* of that when I choose accessories.
Also, I was horrified to find that all my makeup was old and expired. It’s not great to apply bacteria directly to the face. So, I was forced to dump and restock, but I’m getting quality stuff so my attention is no longer divided among so many pots of makeup and I can actually use all (or most) of my products before they expire. Who knew that time in makeup-years could go by so fast? I had some eyeshadows that outlasted my 5 1/2 year relationship with my boyfriend.
In less-exciting news, I won this budgeting software and I love it. It’s actually called, “You Need a Budget.” My dad is an impulse-spender and my mom was always hands-off with money as a non-earner, so I never had a great example of how to spend responsibly. I’m finally taking control of my spending and it feels so good. Even with the clothes shopping, I feel so in control. I used to spend with my debit card and forget how much I spent and where I spent it. Now I’m sure to enter my spending right into the budgeting software and while budgeting seems
like it would be constraining, it’s not. I have never felt more free. I think the very act of recording how much I spend is keeping me from spending mindlessly.